想通了

人真的是不能总是思考，天天想我的PS怎么办，没有行动一切都是扯淡，所以今天一定要加油起来，坐回原来的自己。每次总是要经历一些弯路才能走回原路，不管怎样继续前进。明天开始好好准备PS，不能总是这样没有成就感下去，不然活着还有什么意义呢？

要成功，就要不顾一切往前冲！

what should i do next?

i feel empty and sad because i don't know what to do. i am not a student. i do not find a friend here. i can not find myself in the community. nearly all of the chinese are students. they have their own business. however, i cook all the time at home, wash clothes, clean my room. i am never a student. so, i am not good now. sometimes i feel i am stupid cause i can not find something intreseting.

what should i do?

i have to apply for my master degree. but i do not know whether i like the major or not. in the future,i have to live on the job. so if i am not like it, how do i deal with it. i do not know.

i am sure this is the most terrible time in my life.